ongbak!

time is not on my side.

2010-06-26T12:06:00.000-07:00

It has been 2 months since i last blogged o.o SUPER BUSY ever since April, gave my best shot in Term 2, and pretty much had an AWESOME BREAK during the June Holidays.

AND TOMORROW IS THE START OF SCHOOL ALREADY! A multitude of feelings i guess. D: quite apprehensive about the workload we're gonna get, yet can't wait to get back in action and put in EVERY OUNCE OF BRAIN JUICE I HAVE to make these 14 weeks worth it.

3 years of work has all amounted to this last burst, before I reach the end of a great 4-year term in HCI HIGHSCHOOL SECTION. :) been pretty fast, but a hell of a ride man.

Well, ever since Term 2 I've been drained. both emotionally and mentally and physically. And I'm really tired of trying. not only for academics. and bullshit just had to happen LOL in the first week of my June Holidays. I guess I just have to move on, but I need to ask myself many questions first.

16slc has been the GREATEST FRIGGING decision i ever made this year. :) 16slc FACtionary. There was a time when I thought 16facs would never be as good as 15facs. I almost gave up trying. But I'm awfully glad I didn't, cos we are totally awesome :)

I've never seen so many people so united :) and the friendships and bonds I've formed here, really transcends what SLC was meant to be in black ink on white paper. FACabangs made SLC enjoyable and fun :) and the point of BONDING people through 16slc is just magical :) I hope these bonds really last, cos I don't want to let anything go.

Then came storm after SLC. DIDN'T DO WELL FOR iMUN :C and pretty much blamed myself cos i knew i could have done much better. But I won't find excuses for my failure. MUNs are kinda tiring, and I guess this was a good experience after all :D

I've literally been going out every other day of the holidays. physically, I'm screwed up.

But somehow, I feel super rest-ed up. :D I'm ready for a new school term, of giving it my all AGAIN, and persevering till that last point of the year. :)

hopefully my flame doesn't burn out.

and of courseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee there're somethings I have to settle. :(

I sort of failed. Perhaps a matter of timing, perhaps a stroke of fate and very bad luck.

I need time to think through everything now............

): I can't believe 5 months amounted to nothing though.

but ending this on a positive note,

JY EVERYONE FOR TERM 3 :)

i would be the smartest man

2010-04-17T11:12:00.001-07:00

Invisible - Clay Aiken

Whatcha’ doin’ tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[Repeat Chorus]

If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...

-----

if i was invisible.

wait, i already am.

feeling like that really sucks yeah?

I WOULD BE THE SMARTEST MAN.

:/ maths test on tuesday.

put everything aside, with this goal in front of my eye.

let's solve everything later.

sigh.

RENEWED DEW DROPS :D

2010-04-07T09:31:00.001-07:00

I FEEL THE URGE TO WORK AGAIN.

IT FEELS SO GOOD.

:DDD

refreshing feeling :)

got to keep this drive on. :)) jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuu bakky >)

easter eggs in a basket

2010-04-06T09:30:00.000-07:00

God works in weird weird ways.

iMUN! got in .__. and i'm going to commit to it. another chance given to me :) i feel really blessed sometimes. but there's always some empty insatiable hunger inside me, not for food but for glory and other materialistic stuff. i gotta start counting my blessings :/ one egg two egg three egg four egg!

i cant believe i just 擦肩而过 today. if only the damned car was faster -.-

fagggg!

D:

LIT ESSAY.

i'm still slacking. i have to source back my TERM 1 DRIVE.

something i lost on the way.

hey you yes you :(

what more can i say other than the word sorry?

2010-04-04T06:21:00.002-07:00

when i knew i could have tried harder...

when i broke the promises i made

when words just can't describe the agony and pain

when i want to rewind the clock

and start all over again

when these regrets just keep hitting me

and i'm reminded again of the effort i was supposed to put in

when it just doesn't matter anymore

when i want to give it another shot

but it just ain't coming back to me

i'm sorry is the only sentence i can say

i can only hope for a chance to recorrect the wrongs

and steer things right again.

but i never learn from these mistakes

please please please give me the strength to do so.

what more can i say other than the word sorry?

2010-04-04T06:21:00.001-07:00

the words just won't come out.

2010-04-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

i really want to say 还我河山, but i realised these words just won't slip out of my tongue, no matter how hard i try, maybe because I don't mean it anymore. After one year, looking at them, I'm reminded of many things. of failure. of fun in the process. of disappointment. of tears. but after one year, i guess i lost all that passion. No matter how much i try, it just isn't there. I'm like a hollow shell when it comes to this issue, and I don't want to be a hypocrite by just stating these 4 words.

Last year, it meant so much. Now, i'm not sure anymore.

Nevertheless, all the best for tomorrow.

Gone but never back.

): fuck

): i want to be a simple man again.

it isn't so bad issit? So much expectations, so much pressure now.

D:

2010-04-01T10:55:00.000-07:00

why is it so hard to discern what you're thinking?

): give me the key please.

this 2 weeks have been unproductive bullshit. I'm procrastinating like hell, and it seems like im about to repeat history, with all the slacking done... I have to stop myself from falling into that pit again ): I can't afford to screw up this year.

Council has been awesome, went down for cheering and doing alot more stuff :) something that i wanted to do with my 1 year term. Although i sorta regret not going consortium council, imma put all my best into this year, and leave with no regrets! :D doing CSM with libo! gonna brainstorm my brains out and make it resounding >:

and then there's criticism for the council, which is supposedly SUGGESTIONS and CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM. but please offer a solution? we're not slaves who stay in a room 24/7 and discuss how to improve your life. and although ÿou do lah may sound like a cheap excuse to lay off the responsibility, why don't you really try? Timothy and Nicholas, from what i see and hear, are already doing their best, and the whole 37th HSC is behind them, providing all teh support we can give. You say we're uninspiring. As a team, we are inspiring, and being all "leadership" isn't exactly about exerting all the badass influence of some supersaiyan aura. A leader must learn how to follow, and when he follows well, he too becomes a leader, exerting influence on others and working towards their same goal. So sorry, i don't agree with you at all. ._.

i have to stop slacking and pull my socks up high.

gogogogogogogo D<

and it has already been 1 week. and I'm already damn screwed in the mind about this issue ):

I wonder if you're ever thinking about this...

sigh.

i guess reciprocation doesn't necessarily have to be proportionate to the effort and enthusiasm for it.

): ): ): ):

old cocoons and new souls

2010-03-26T09:28:00.001-07:00

I EMERGE A NEW MAN.

because looking back and wallowing in self-pity won't help.

because only when i fall can i rise taller than i ever was.

GO ONGBAK :D

2010-03-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

stop wallowing in self-pity cos there's so much more to the world than that.

accept the failure motherfuckerrrrr and ARISE ONCE AGAIN :)

God has given me so much, it's time to count my blessings and be content.

I'll try. No guarantees but fuck it.

:) alright.

hopefully this lasts.

:)

TODAY ISH GREAT

2010-03-24T05:26:00.001-07:00

i'm fucking disgusted at myself.

envy.. what the fuck man.

2010-03-24T04:33:00.000-07:00

all the right moves in all the wrong places.

the stinging pain is still hitting me everyday. all the lost chances all the pent up disappointment and anger towards myself and the world i guess.

i can't blame anyone for this, that's what sucks. tugging on me everyday, reminding me whenever someone mentions that word. and idk what to feel. unfair? i'm just not good enough. if only...

get out of my mind ._.

not feeling very joyous.

renshengdichao.

how do you pick up this disappointment and throw it away and live life all again?

i really dont know.

it's really only me doing the job.

reciprocate damn.

gah fuck.

broken clocks and wasted time.

2010-03-10T09:32:00.000-08:00

stop slacking ongbak D:

you still have freaking physics and HRP to do. and you're going CHINA NEXT WEEK! procrastination at its maximum. i'm feeling extremely unmotivated today. D< be it in sabbaticals, cca or school work... I think I'm tired. :/ but i really need to stop slacking cos i need to train up stamina and armstrength or not i gg D:

sighh.. so many things to do. so little time left.

maybe i wasted all my time on useless stuff.

BUT NONETHELESS, NEVER REGRET ANYTHING YOU DO.

salvage the situation, i shall.

go ongbak go!

:)

i realised nobody's simple minded anymore. ): that kinda sucks cos we can't be true to each other without tearing down our defences. And it's difficult to trust, something i've learnt from battle royale and personal experience.

the fear of being betrayed, those feelings of reliance you want to have but can't.

why can people be simple.

): and the whole society's in such a state where it's one for one, no more trust, no more sailing through difficulties as a team.

just you and the corporate ladder.

keep climbing and climbing.

is it worth it?

i'd rather make more trustworthy friends.

:/ ohwell.

reflect and grow stronger.

2010-03-08T05:47:00.000-08:00

LEADERSHIP SABBAT.

i learned alot more about what it means to be a leader.

conscious knowing of your influence, and utilizing this influence to persuade your followers. possessing characteristics and values of a leader... i think this is really a projection of what i want to be. After slacking for like almost everyday of my sec 1 and 2 life, i realised what i want to be in sec 3. and now, i have an even clearer idea now.

i realized being a leader meant being an exemplary person in everyday life, showing these leadership values in activities, leading by example, being a role model, yet at the same time, putting others before you.

my greatest takeaway for today was this. Putting others before you.

sounds simple, yet so so difficult. How easy is it to ignore your own interests, and put aside these silly excuses for the team's perspectives? Although it may burden you as the leader, or maybe even a follower, as a follower, in my opinion is a leader of his choice in his own rights, we have to make these choices. and often or not, the greedy side of ourselves take over, and we often choose the decisions that are inclined towards helping ourselves, ignoring the other party's needs.

I want to be able to put others before myself, possess these characteristics of integrity and the heart of leadership. Influence comes naturally after this.

I finally get it now.

:D

2010-03-07T08:11:00.001-08:00

i've been procrastinating like hell recently.

nooooooooooooo!

workrate reallyreally bad ):

someone ask me to get my slacking ass off and start doing maths!!!

circular measures before 1am. let's do it D:

ONGBAKPAUWAR

but i couldn't make you see it.

2010-03-07T08:06:00.000-08:00

you're hot then you're cold!

D:

these few days have been depressing much.

argh. everyone's dota-ing and all ._.

and i keep getting dao-ed by everyone ):

fuck.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-03-05T05:32:00.000-08:00

THE WEEKENDS ARE HERE :)) FINALLY. ONE TO ENJOY and have fun :D

yayayayay.

A1 for maths! :) overall A1 :D hahaha.

Broken - Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

so i'm still holdinggg im barely holding on to you.

tmr cca lol -.-

2010-03-04T04:57:00.000-08:00

i am disgusted at a certain individual.

always blaming the system, never himself, for any screw-ups or setbacks he has in his life. a hypocrite, talking to others about the unrealistic aspects of MUN, taking the backdoor in order to attain his position, and FINALLY he gets it!

CONGRATULATIONS. I HOPE YOU FEEL HONOURED WITH THIS PLACE YOU ACHIEVED.

OH LOOK. I DIDNT GET IN. SCREW THE MUN SYSTEM. IT'S FLAWED. IT'S JUST A FLIRTING PLATFORM.

HEY MAYBE I'LL GET IN EH?

surreal-ness.

2010-03-03T01:47:00.000-08:00

awesome. chemistry A1! :D almost the whole class got it but heyyyy 27.5/30 high A1 :DD

haha mr chew rocks :))

geography B4! just what i needed for a B3 IH score and yayyayay i got it :)) be content i guess.

i kinda got over the rmun incident haha. wish those who are going all the besttt :D

i'll go for slc fac! :D

yayayaya tmr maths test! final one to end this string of misery and suffering. finarryyyy

although i'm not that confident of my application of differentiation skills.

ohwell. KEEP ON TRYING.

cos i'm a yesman!

:)) happyface

cookie crumbles.

2010-03-01T01:49:00.000-08:00

life takes another tumble and falls down the hill.

i think i'm too greedy sometimes. but was it wrong to have hope?

and so i failed. again. failed so many times i lost track.

i knew it was too good to be true. ohwell. reality hits back.

sigh. did it really have to be this way.

i want so much but accomplish so little.

2010-02-28T07:42:00.001-08:00

WHY IS MY EQ SO BAD AND I KEEP SCREWING THIS UP

2010-02-28T05:45:00.000-08:00

beautiful and awesome song. really hooked on it ): lifehouse is underrated! and a great band. you and me was touching as well.

Blind - Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

i think i'm mad. but not obsessing is difficult. i don't want much, but a part of me will probably die when i realise the sad truth.

ohwell life's always a bitch :)

but hope keeps me strong! so i shall keep on hoping in hallucination that one day it'll all work out.

for now i just need some help and divine intervention, cos

you're really hard to figure out ._.

RANDOM STREAKING

2010-02-27T10:34:00.000-08:00

do we really know what we're fighting for? are we always staying true to ourselves?
are we burdened by stuff we just want to shake off?

i want to lay down my arms

i'm blind inside, acting outside

i'm a hypocrite

i just want unattainable things.

i need some signs from you.

i need some hope at the end of the tunnel.

cos happiness hangs on the hope that i have

cos i'm hanging on by a thread

and i'm pretty messed up inside

i feel inferior at times

but i ain't giving up

but i believe it's time for that miracle

and i keep on hoping

on everything i staked for this.

14 BLADES @ PLAZA SING.

IT'S AWESOME :D

judge of the desert was super cooll :D i think i'm turning gay but his spinning boomerang thingum is <3 LOL

I WANT TO HAVE HOPE! and keep on hoping!

YESman! :D

battered and tired.

2010-02-27T10:02:00.000-08:00

HARRO WORLD. long time since i posted. this week was chocked full of tests and random thingums :D

MONDAY GEOG+LIT Test. Lit was a killer ): i think i screwed up my essay! hopefully i get a B3 to lift my negative spirits towards Literature. Geography... Gwee said we didn't do very well so I'm not very inclined to think well of my results too. D:

wednesday was cross country! got to dress up as mascot with ZHIXIAN LOL. pretty retarded, but at least they didn't know I was inside haha. got to hug Dr Hon! and he punched my stomach before that heh -.- acted guailan, but not as much as zhixian, and had chemistry test after that. quite ok... hopefully i can get an A1 hehe.

thursdayyy NYGH INVEST! :D quite fun haha first investiture that i actually watched as an audienceee and i have to say i was really impressed :) the councillors/psls/monitors/cca leaders were super coordinated, and the dance was awesome haha! :D too bad didn't know many people there from council ): and didn't say hi to many people haha. BAD PR SKILS. really really bad ): got to improve on that :/

fridayyyyyyyyy was boring. -.- went EP3 and went home -.- nothing much worth mentioning about.

schedule over o_o

i feel really shagged after one week of bullshit, and i'm sick and tired of some things. I detest you and your pitiful attempts, and I'm not really going to give a damn. Nothing extra to save the status quo, just sticking to my what i'm supposed to do. :)

at times like this i feel like a hypocrite. but oh well. you ignited these flames anyway.

on a lighter note maths test is on thursday. ): this isn't really light but less of a bullshit that i faced -.-

i need to read minds. really D:

i realised i can't comfort people much. ):

i realised i can't analyse these emotions i feel.

i realised i can't analyse these emotions others feel.

i want to live like i'm dying D: like seriously! i don't want to die but i think what i get from it will be awesomely cool.

i think i'm easily contented :)

and i got so much to say to you but in the spur of the moment it's hard cos i forget and after i remember you just disappear and arghahrAHGUASHGAUF

D:

2010-02-18T10:01:00.000-08:00

HARLOO EVERYBODY 8D

:)) yay! today's a good day :D

yesterday i mean. blogging at 2am is refreshingly cool o_o
i just came back from a GEOGRAPHY MINDBLOW D: geography is really different this year, and unless a much needed miracle happens, i suspect a longgg weekend ahead.
one term's almost over! I've seen breakdowns, emo-ing, happiness, foobing around, having fun, serious moments all in this term, and i have to say that i benefited loads from these experiences.

As we grow along the way, every dumb mistake we made, every lesson absorbed all goes into improving ourselves, as a person, as a friend, as a worker. Keeping an open mindset really helped me, and this term, and EVEN LAST YEAR, i had so many aid from other people, something i'm super thankful for. :) i'll try to credit them at the end of this term! :D

I need to learn to be more expressive hmm. D: only then can i be a better friend in helping otherssss and my superplanoftheyear :D hence i shall try and think more and talk more and improve on these areas >)

I suddenly remembered i haven't finished reading frankenstein too D: amagawdddd.

:D I WANT TO READ MORE DURING THE HOLIDAYS! and improve my expression. THROUGH WORDS! awesome plans for an awesome holiday ahead :D

alrightttt bye people! have a good day ahead 8)

yay :)

P.S. i suspect facebook aint enough to get people tagging again.. HMM shall spam other people's tagboxes now to announce my comeback 8D

2010-02-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

so it all boils down to choices.

i can't split myself into two ):

got to let some stuff go, let some stuff in.

KIND OF offered a training position today :/ but idk whether to take it up or not! commitments commitments, responsibilities and studies. I'm prolly not having it as hard as others, but it can be choking at times.

Priority? I don't know. I really want to take it up. But am i up to it? :/ can i be someone they look up to? D: I want to be someone like that. So i'm giving it a try >)

Today was awesome 8) for some warped reason. A2 for history! counts on next week's geog for a safe A2. pressure pressure!

And cos of NY invest i'm going for 3 more maths lessons before the test next week too o_o i'm rearry scroo-ed.

and i'm still staring at that name.
if only i could read minds and dissect what you're thinking.

i can only hope for the best.

2010-02-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

): life is over as we know it.

tralalalala.

amagawd

2010-02-15T06:43:00.000-08:00

DAY 2 of attempting to reblog again cause i'm feeling bored :)

DAY 2 OF CNY! :)) nothing much, just went to bai nian and stuff :D feels good to meet up and catch up.. but cny just seems quite dull in recent years. I don't interact with cousins much anymore, and everyone just seem so busy, caught up in traffic jams of life -.- and i guess the spirit of cny is kinda weak in me now ):

i remember when i would always look forward to house visits :) with awesome food and hongpaos and PS2 (:DD) at my cousin's every year, and the reluctance of going home cos of the fun i was having. but now it's the direct opposite and i'm like staring at the tv o_o and wondering what homework i have left -.- arghhh D:

i want to find that cheer in my someday. maybe next year :/

i think we're rushing too much in life ._. the short cny break. after that? week 8 BAM 4 tests smack on o_o lit geog maths chem -.- i don't really see light at the end of the tunnel. it's like mugging and mugging and projects and commitments and stuff one after another. I don't regret taking them up, but sometimes they're really crushing me man ):

although the CHINARRR trip in march sounds cool :D nope not bsc but travelling there with family. imma eat seahorses and cicadas and lamb penises :D awesome.

hence i shall now go finish up maths and start on chem homewoork o_o and TETRISSS while i'm at it :D

bak outsideeeee 8)

last ditch attempt

2010-02-14T06:49:00.001-08:00

HARRRO EVERYBODY :)) at the start of the new year, it's time to make adjustments to life, embark on new things and end old ones.

SO.. since i've quit DOTA and everything, I'm much more free now and i shall pathetically attempt to revive my blog!

Since it's the new year, I'm feeling rearry rearry lazy too :D so i'll put up links AFTER THE NEW YEAR! :))

The New Year has been great so far, by both the lunar calendar and the western one :) I've learnt alot, made super new good friends, and found things about myself i never knew :D

This year i'll aim to become a better guy. I'll judge others less, love more, mug more, slack less, hate less, be more friendly and optimistic (:

So here's to an even better year, and future longer blogposts. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

oh and valentine's day too o_o :D

2009-07-28T11:05:00.000-07:00

sups people. it's alreadeh week 5 omg D: everyone is sort of crumbling in one way or another, but like covalent bonds, we are holding on to each other, giving support, giving an electron to the other, not being selfish like noble gases D: and <333 yeah.

i think i really can look at things differently nao. :D useful trait really. :/ but me thinks it has fueled procrastination in me. :/ just finished maths hw. D: i FAILED MATHS. have i mentioned that.

12/40 yay.

but i got A1 for fiziks! >) showing hard work does pay off. :/ Chem wasnt so good though. sigh. :/ bonding is much easier. D: oh well.

and, i realised that god has been really nice to me this year :D he gave me alot of opportunities and stuff, and really, i want to be more like him :D selfless, pure and giving. :/ swear less and stuff. D: random thoughts D<

half a year has flown past me D: and another half is like a cookie being eaten. :/ have to grab hold of the chocolate chips before i crumble to pieces and regret.

i'm getting hungry.

time to mug maths D:

byebye <3

2009-07-24T20:59:00.000-07:00

:D life has been okaay. I guess. theengs are FINALLY PICKING UP :D and my exams and all are GETTING BETTAR. unless you count maths LOL. 12/40 (: i'm too gewd at this.

well i sort of realised that it's not things that happen to you that screw you up. it's how you react to this problems that truly make you screwed, or just a stupid optimistic kid.

i picked the latter :D

and seriously,i think life's picking up :D so i guess being stupid and optimistic works. for me at least.

and there are just so many abangs and friends out there, willing to help ye, and you sort of feel appreciated for all they did. Life is so fast, sometimes we forget the people around us. and without them seriously, we cant really live on D:

SO THANKSKKASODKAODKASODKa

:D

speaking of which.. YESTERDAY WAS ESPADARRRR OUTEENG!

HAHA SUPER FUN OMG :D

we paid. 8 BUcks. For 5SECONDS OF OMGWTHKEWL screen time.

i shall not reveal what it is.

maybe i will if you ask me on msn :D

and i admit DRACO MALFOY IS HOT LOL

:D im turneeng gay.

i solo-ed one bag of popcorn. ._. not full bag. i threw abit at wesley's head :D but the movie was quite boring.

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
quite disappointing really ):

the storyline was OK... but it was like JUST ANOTHER MOVIE. it lacked alot of action and stuff. :/
could be alot better though :D but watching ron and hermoine's relationship was WORTH IT LOL

and when ron weasley ate the chocolatess which were supposedly given to harry, everyone was like "WESLEYYYY"

shan't spoil more. D: worth a catchif you truly like the story. or not you'll just fall asleep like ryo did beside me D:

and went home. stoned. and ATTEMPTED TO PLAY DOTARRR. but i fell asleep halfway LOL.

now i gtg do what ladyqueen decrees me to do.

byee keeds :D

2009-07-14T23:11:00.000-07:00

life sucks when..

you get backstabbed. :D
and lies spread.

i trusted ye.

good job :D

thanks alot.

maybe i won't be going tmr.

2009-07-07T09:49:00.001-07:00

haha 6th MAS <3 :DDD

a blast. (:

of scandals.

wars

and love. :D

shall blog about it tmr.

chionging eng compre. :/ holi hw!

tmr nneed do physics. LOL

YAY ME.

:D

2009-07-02T19:51:00.001-07:00

D: i feel terribly sour today.

lol.

:D it's the RIGHT CHOICE I HOPE.

._.

off to elearning. may post later 8)

i have no more
MOTIVATION

2009-06-29T02:44:00.000-07:00

i tried. really.

do you know you're unlike any other.

was it something i said, or something i never did? or was i always in the way?

and i'm on the brink.

i just don't want to miss you goodnight.

when everything's meant to be broken, i just want you to know who i am.

i don't mind spending everyday, shouting

if you see kay, can you tell her that i love her.

i know it makes no sense, but what else can i do?

how can i move on, when i'm still in love with you.

and if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be,

i'll be out in your corner in the pouring rain, coming up to meet you,

and tell you how lovely you are.

tell you i need you.

tell me your secrets, ask me your questions,

oh let's go back to the start.

i think i already lost you.

i think i'm finally scared now.

i think i could need this in my life.

i think i'm scared.

i think too much.

2009-06-20T02:25:00.000-07:00

:D HAHA. ok been busy lately ): shall post something! haha.

gah. this holiday has been quite tiring. YET FUFILLING! lol. i shall list some beegbeeg stuff.

1st week was... SLC!

SLC was seriously great. haha 15thslc <3 :D all the ots, facs, participants were really enthu and stuff :) and PEGASI WAS A BANG. haha. met people from like. practically everywhere, and everyone of us is different in our own ways. some are loud, some quiet, some crazy, some enthu, some dao at times, but all in all, i think all of us really bonded in this short 1 week. coming up with proposals. talking on msn discussing,

ASKING FOR MORE MOOLAH (money) :D
having really intellectual discussions and arguments that served to let us know each other better,

and really, just having fun, getting more friends! haha (: it was really. really. fufilling. 1 week passed quickly, but this memory is etched. especially with... GRAND FINALE! haha.

which was frigging high. PEOPLE MAKEENG TRAINS! singing I'M YOURSSS! and really, BEING HIGH. and our bimbo performance 8D haha.

so, i would like to extend my thanks to...

PEGASI! too many to list. D:

FAC! OW SONG SIM <3 haha super HIGH guy.

HEADFAC! DAMIAN! haha although i don't really know you well. HEARD STORIES FROM RYO :D

CONCEPT MEMBER! ESTHER! haha thanks alot!

and practically the OT and (SUPERHIGH) FACS for making this convention THE convention of mai laife. :D

well. that's SLC :D

hmm. then after that was.. of course procrastinating with my fellow abangs 8)

LOL. RYOWESLEYJAMESJHKEVINETCETCETC IN OUR DAILY SEC 3 CHAT.

Slackslackslackslack+ play dota.

haha it's really fun slacking hehe (:

and talking crap.

and scandals.

and revolutionary things you find out.

:D

and there's yfc!

haha quite fun cutting stuff and stuff. and doing saikang!

and meeting paedo card uncle.

and printing shirt.

and slaving WESLEY LEONG TO COME UP WITH DESIGNS! haha it has really been a good experience for me (:

so yea. THANKS oh motherly LADYQUEEN.

D: and now there's one week left. haha. well. theengs end.

shiat. marcus chasing me for lit review. LOL

ohya. PROJ DAY <3

jyjy kids :D

newww blog 8D

2009-06-15T09:06:00.001-07:00

hey doods. new blogg!! haha. wanted something new. (:

going to find blogskeens :D